Deep Inside

Not black enough 

Not white enough 

Where do I fit

In a society isolated by everything because

I don't fit 

I don't fit

I don't fit

Why was that their choice

Bounded by the words from their lips

Too big

Too big

Too big 

Used to the words that became my name , my title that reminded me of who I was and my pain

No tears to cry felt empty inside built a wall of self-hatred

Inside

Inside 

I wanted to cry, fragile they couldn't see my pain

Put on the smile never took off my mask talked about myself so they wouldn't have

Now that I think back I was never human I was a laugh a bag of meat always reminded of what she eats

I say I'm okay 

I'm ok

I'm great

It's just so they wouldn't have to hear my pain 

they didn't care they just wanted to feel sane

I'm sprung off the deep end sinking but no one seeing me drown

keep it inside so I don't look like a clown