Dear Loneliness..

Dear Loneliness...

Friend are you for long,

Stalking me, when vulnerable and exposed,

Hiding in shadows of memories scattered,

Dear loneliness,

You are no stranger to me,

Nor do you scare me,

Yet at nights you wake me, in cold sweat

Of insecurity and aching agony.

How you burnt my house,

Took away my friends and love,

Stranded, lost , you left me at crossroads,

Mocking, jeering at my state of mind,

My indisposition, my agony,

Which I can neither forgive nor forget.

The rites of passage you made me walk on,

Bleeding soles, from shrapnels of broken

Memories, on my path untrodden,

Which I took,

What gain or laughter filled your ego,

To see my tears fall and none to console,

Two steps I climbed, with immense will,

Only to slip one, trying to move yet 

Stranded in the land of fogs and swamp.

The more I struggled, deeper I sank,

In intense darkness, scarce could I see any light,

Maybe my hands may be empty now,

The heart bleeding and broken,

Yet dear loneliness, you will not win,

For forces larger than you, pulls me out,

Comfort zone I can rebuild, my broken nest,

With new people, old love,

But ache to see the ones I lost,

For just one glance, one look,

Hidden behind the curtain of obscurity,

Gone to hereafter, yet I shall keep seeking,

My astral form, in sleep, wanders like a child,

Tired am I now, I toss a dime in the well,

For a magical dream to come to life,

Of loved ones once again,

And solitude not loneliness,

Filling my soul,

Dear loneliness,

So do not write me off,

For destiny is bigger than you or me,

And strength and circumstances,

May fill my soul, 

With the same wine of yesterday,

The ashes smouldering again,

To a heart warming fire, of peace and love,

Security and the promise, 

That I have drunk my cup of wrath,

Now I shall be intoxicated by the changing times.