By River Efil I Sat and Wept

A quiet night with beautiful stars

But here I come to heal my scars,

Water flows as a mirror of the sky

But here I am shedding tears from my eye,

The river Efil, so stark, beautiful, and majestic

Then there is my reflection ugly and pathetic.

 

I sit down and think about life

About who I let down and who I might,

Sitting by the river on this empty night

With no light like my life,

I want to get up I want to embrace this sight

But I cannot cause my eyes are shut tight.

 

The bees are buzzing around the flower

But I cannot look as I have no will and no power,

People say to change your perception of life

But it feels like me and my eyes have strife,

Cause I want to feel good and nice

But I feel like I have been stabbed with a knife.

 

That's why I came here to relax and look at the sky

But all I see is darkness and feel tears in my eye,

Yesterday what I saw in my lamp's light

Is now the reason there is no purpose in my life,

I want to talk to family and tell friends how I feel bad

But I fake a smile because I don't want them to feel sad.

 

­­­­I want to feel good and get rid of this knife

That I could not complete the dream of my life,

Every day feels like my life has a lice

I feel like a failure every sunrise,

This river and sky used to calm me down

I felt I could get back and be renowned.

 

But now when I come here, I feel like a clown

Remembering the disappointed faces looking at me with a frown,

I feel sad and empty like I am trapped alone

But don’t want to tell anyone as they have problems of their own,

There is sadness everywhere there is no light of hope

I sit beside this river and just mope.

 

I have disappointed everyone near and dear

Everyone tells me to cheer up but I cannot hear,

My life is in a spiral and nothing is clear

My life has become a lion and I a deer,

That is why I came here to cleanse my sphere,

If I want to be happy, I cannot live here.

 

I have always loved this place so safe and sound

It always made me happy but now I cannot come around,

Sorry to all the people that I let down

But don't worry anymore cause now I drown,

The river and sky were always with me from the night to sun

So, for me to be finally happy we must all become one.