Today When I Saw Her

Today when I saw her 

On my IG scrolling

I was a bit less excited

A bit less happy 

Only frowned, scoffed and sighed a little instead of grinning

 

Today when I saw her

In my old conversation

Those conversations were less attractive

Less heart-skipping

Less of everything

 

Today when I searched her 

In my head, she was not to be found easily

Went deep into my head-space and there she was, but she had nothing to say 

Standing in some strange land 

That land where she used to be present every sec of every day

 

When I searched her 

In my life 

Life’s reply just added to my nemesis

She was there but her existence was non-prejudice

 

When I blamed her

For my sadness

I quickly found out that that sadness was because of my own madness 

And she no more acquires the greater part of my emotional gladness

 

When I praised her 

For my achievements

I got to know 

She was nowhere to be found for those lil disagreements

Today When my heart tend to miss her

My mind rebelled

 

When I replayed a memory from the days of yore

My perfectly normal heartbeat soared

When I dedicate love songs to her

Well I don’t do that anymore

When I wanted to tell her 

Every detail of my entire daylight

I realized that she’s not around to reply ” I know right “

 

When I wanted to know her

Better 

I came to know 

All that what I knew about her was a mere reflection that was scattered

Today when I fell for her 

I couldn’t help it

 

When I loved her

I saw a white dove and thought,

She was smiling back from above.

 

Today when I saw her 

Her body was all cold

Her eyes were all closed

Her bruises were still fresh 

And some wounds had cut deep into her flesh

 

Damn !! 

She looks so beautiful

As she left this fake and hurtful world

Today when I saw her

Was the last time when I saw her