Better Than Before

Patience is one thing and trust is another.

I fell for you with none of these and it broke my heart.

I let you catch and drop me with no trust to see.

It was built and broken down as our time continued.

Now sitting here I think of all the good times and the bad ones.

Concluding we were broken from the start, but I guess it made us stronger.

Pushing each other away because we don't know what to say or what to do.

Yet I feel like an idiot and fool.

Well today is a new day and another one to get over you.

Finally, I have moved on even though I know you already did, but now I'm better than before.

I can smile and laugh because I'm happy.

I need to cry, but only to forget the pain I once felt.

Too much to grasp, too much to hold, but now here I am smiling at your blank face.

No tears will be shed for you for that is useless.

I am not broken I am not cracked, but I am shining and brand new.

Each time you try to crack me I come back better than before.

So thank you for all the struggles and thank you for the pain because I have better learned that life isn't easy nor will it ever be.

My heart does not grieve and my soul does not pour out.

My blood flows for me to live and my eyes burn from the pain I have felt as I hold back the tears.

It's my turn to get back up and let myself heal.

Just leave because if you wanted to help me, you wouldn't have left so I guess this is good riddance, but thank you for being my friend for a short time.

It was fun while it lasted, but now it's over and there's nothing left to say.

I'll be back better than before, but for now, I'll leave and hide until I have healed myself.