Another Story

My pages of emotions turns up

With a new story yet again

This time it's unrequited love

But the twist is the loved one doesn't know even.

Even I do not know if it's real

Or just a crush, or nothing!

But definitely is something more,

Failing to recognise or ....

Just fearing to!

A certain amount of depth

A sudden heavy feeling

That surrounds my heart,

Is quite different.

A free-flowing feeling that

Just needs some care and assurance,

Of being there with me!

Yes, let how much single I am

I miss the person to be with.

I miss that one touch feeling.

I miss that lovable feeling.

I know...

There is so much of fear, to lose.

Those sadness and pains

I do not want to experience anymore.

But how long will I have to wait

For that person

Who doesn't know it even.

I try to live as much happily as I can

Do not even express a bit...of me.

Do not even want to be in love.

Those thoughts of long talks,

The thought of that big responsibility,

The thought of a bonding,

The feel of that heavy feeling...

Frightens me!

Not a fear of commitment, But

A fear of losing him.

A fear of pain,

A fear of lost trust

A fear of broken heart

And fear of sleepless nights.

Still...the waits

The wants,

Craving for love

Pulling you closer.

The want to share your feelings

The want of sharing your dream with him

The wanting of holding hands tight!

And wanting of rubbing tears when you cry...

Craving for love in the sleepless nights &

Craving to see the last sunset of life...

Craving to see the promises being kept

Nd dreaming of being forever together!

I know its not a big thing to ask for...

But is A Huge thing to want.

Love is not anything that can happen,

But Is the most wonderful thing that can happen!

Love is not about sharing "cheesy" lines

Or being utterly romantic.

Not that only-tactile relationship,

Or posing for photos...

Its a journey of life

Travelling it together!

In bad as well as good junctions.

Sharing every bit of life with,

And getting immensely loved!

Everyday getting up in the morning

To see his face,

And sleeping in his warm heart at night

Seeing those small emotions and happiness

Being fulfilled by your love!

I guess will have to wait,

Or maybe just Its not for me!

Or maybe these are not made for me!