Abandoned Life

How is this going to heave 

When all in front of me is a disease,

Palliative life turned out true

Just widowed it all as it came through,

How am I gonna decide when I don't?

How am I gonna survive when I can't?

All through life stayed what left

All I can think of this is as a gift,

Sooner rather than later this was going to happen

Up in front of me life is going to turn me down 

Or is it just an illusion in my mind's town

I'll go down to me or just look at the mirror

Or I'll see through my life as my chest wide tear.