1 AM Thoughts

Sitting on the rooftop, looking at the brightest star

Every star is equally far, yet equally near 

Looking at the phone blink, half-hearted goodnight texts 

I wish I wasn't all alone here

Driving across the city, listening to an indifferent playlist

Every song is the same, yet different

Looking at the streetlights, passing as silent goodbyes

1 am thoughts are the only company here 

Pulling up in your driveway, thinking of all the things I'd say 

I don't know how to say I'm sorry

I can see you looking at me through the half-shut curtains

And yet I decide to drive away

Impulsive, uncertain

I thought driving to you would help me sleep

Acting like I never knew,

You are the reason why I can't sleep

You are, what I call, my 1 AM thoughts