" I Am A Sin , But I Will Win"

THIYA

I COULD FEEL I COULD SENSE, I HAVE A HEART.

YES NOW I AM IN MY MOTHER'S WOMB.

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It's so strange in life the place where a women is considered.

We are living in a generation where being a girl, is not more horrible then being in hell.

A girl is judged on the basis of her dress, her behaviour, and her freedom.

Since childhood she has to go through so much of pain and agony.

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But I am not here just to talk about her troubles.

But to fight as even I am a girl and I know, HOW cruel life is with us.

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MY name is THIYA, I AM WORKING IN WIPRO AS A SENIOR PROGRAMMING MANAGER.

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PEOPLE SAY BEFORE WE DIE LIFE FLASHES AROUND US.

AND I GUESS ALL MY LIFE IS FLASHING AROUND MY MIND.

IS MY LIFE A HAPPY LIFE, WHAT HAVE I ACHIEVED WERE MY PARENTS HAPPY WITH ME.

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IT'S 1 am and I have to do an important office work as I was working on an overseas company tie up.

I was alone, most of the employees have left. Actually I am the only one in the floor so lights were switched on only in my cabin.

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It's 2 am and my parents didn't care to call me they know I won't listen to them.

But still we all need some attention from our loved ones.

Now I am left to death on roads in this time of night.

I cannot move my hands, I was completly naked, there was blood clotting everywhere.

What am I supposed to do?

I just recollect all the memories of life. Being a girl my parents gave much importance to my brother than me, my father hardly cared about me, just like my mother.

In their opinion I am a burden, yes now I feel I am right. Tommrow when they will know about me, how will they feel? I am raped and left naked on the streets the whole night.

The most disgusting fact is that , people will blame me, being a girl  I am not supposed to go around at nights.

My videos will be uploaded within no time on the internet.

Yes, I smoke only becuase I feel stressed, but people will judge me.

But on that packet it is not written that it is only for boys.

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                           Morning  

PEOPLE GATHERD AROUND ME, FIRST A BUNCH OF PEOPLE CAME, BUT SEEING ME IN THIS STATE THEY LEFT ME.

THANKS TO THOSE PEOPLE! YOU HAVE PROVED ME RIGHT. SOME PEOPLE IN THIS SOCIETY ARE FUCKING ASSHOLES.

THEN CAME FEW GIRLS AND BOYS, SOON THE GIRLS COVERD ME AND THEY TOOK ME TO HOSPITAL.

BUT THE DOCTORS WERE NOT WILLING TO ADMIT ME, BECUASE IT IS A POLICE CASE.

WHAT A COUNTRY WE ARE LIVING IN!

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FINALLY THE STUDENTS DID SOMETHING AND I WAS ADMITTED, MY PARENTS RUSHED TO THE HOSPITAL.

THEY WERE SHOCKED TO SEE ME. THOUGH I WAS COVERED WITH CLOTHES, THEY WERE SHOCKED TO SEE ME IN THIS STATE.

MY FATHER WAS LOOKING AT ME, I COULD SEE LITTLE PAIN IN HIS EYES.

''ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?"

THESE WERE THE WORDS WHICH CAME OUT FROM HIM.

''NOW DID YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I WOULD STOP YOU FROM ALL THIS, FINALLY YOU HAVE HUMILATED ME''.

HE LEFT THE ROOM, SMASHING THE DOOR BEHIND MY MOTHER FOLLOWED HIM.

THERE WAS A POLICE CASE REGISTERED BUT OUR LAW IS NOT THE LAW WHICH IS IN BOOKS.

MONEY PLAYED THE ROLE, IT WAS STATED THAT I AM A SEX WORKER.

SO, THIS IS ALL A DRAMA I AM DOING TO SPOIL THE NAME OF THE POLITICIAN'S SON.

MY PARENTS REMOVED ME FROM MY HOME, WHICH WAS ACTUALLY NEVER MINE.

I WAS PREGNANT, BUT I WAS NOT MARRIED NEITHER I WENT INTO A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY INTEREST.

AFTER 9 MONTHS I GAVE BIRTH TO A BABY GIRL.

BUT, I WON'T LET HER FACE THE TROUBLE I HAVE FACED.

I NAMED HER THIYA.

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                             20 YEARS LATER

EVERTHING HAS CHANGED. I AM NO MORE IN THIS WORLD. I DID EVERYTHING I COULD DO TO PROVIDE MY CHILD A GOOD LIFE.

SHE IS SAFE NOW. YES SHE HAS DONE WHAT I WANTED. SHE BECAME AN ADVOCATE.

SHE WRITES BOOKS. SHE INSPIRES PEOPLE. YES NOW THINGS ARE CHANGING.

PEOPLE HAVE STARTED RESPECTING GIRLS. GIRLS HAVE STARTED ACHIEVING ALL THAT IS POSSIBLE.

THANKS TO MY DAUGHTER. I AM NOT WITH YOU, BUT YOU MADE MY DREAM COME TRUE.

"I AM SIN, BUT I WILL WIN."

YES I WON THE BATTLE BUT STILL THERE IS SO MUCH TO COME AFTER READING THIS IF PEOPLE CHANGE THEIR MINDSET I WILL BE VERY HAPPY.

HOPE IT IMPACTS PEOPLE. MY PARENTS ARE NOW LOOKING AFTER MY DAYGHTER. MY FATHER LOVES HER SO MUCH.

AFTER KNOWING EVERTHING SHE FORGIVED THEM. BECAUSE SHE IS A TRUE FIGHTER.

Message to all the girls - Choose life, be ambitous, live life, never fear, live your lives to the fullest, you all are stars shine bright as much as you can."