Even Willingly I Can't Hate You

Darling

I care for you

All the way

At all the times

I am not as expressive

As perhaps you would have wished to

I am not a charmer

As perhaps a Hero in the film

But I tell you darling

Let you not be inflicted with any pain

If life warrants it so, be it with me

 

Many do speak

That wife is a pain

But let me tell you darling

That if it is a pain

This pain  I would want

As much as I feel everyone wants

As it is lovely and sweet

With all the challenges it has

 

Life appears so beautiful

In your company dear

For in this I see the differences melts

Egos don’t get nourished

loss or gain of either

meets the same treatment.

 

Sometimes

When I am alone

 In the evenings

Dear, my heart beats

Eagerly waiting for your arrival

For without you, the house

Appears empty,

While I love loneliness

The emptiness you cause

Not being there

Gives my heart a heavy throb.

 

When I come back from office

 I see your seeking eyes

I long for it

Time and again I wish

That each day I at least

Have one such sight

Even if no work is there

I don’t mind

Going out for a while

And coming back

To seek that sight

 

I don’t know

The way you

Used to bend

For the kiss on your forehead

Which I used to give

 

Each day when I left to office

Was a motivator

Or my hands slowly

Drawing through the cheek

And the Jaw

And taking it to my lips

To give a reverence kiss

Was the one

But whenever I missed

I felt miserable

And it looked like

I have lost something

 

The little vermilion

Which you put on my head

Each day religiously

Gives me all the courage

To face all the obstacles

Never in my life

I had to fear for anything

For I felt as though

Almighty was by my side

Throughout the day

 

Yes dear I get angered

Sometimes and sometimes you

For no reason

But I have lived with it

To understand it is momentary

And a few hours later

The smile which we exchange

And the hug which I get

Makes me much closer

Each time when it happens

 

Now I have come

To a stage dear

Where in even If

Due to any reason

I wish to hate you

I cannot

For I have loved

You so much that 

Even willingly I cannot Hate you.