Why I Changed

Heartbreak can be one of the most painful experiences. Dear ex It's been four years of continuous torture and trying to fight the unavoidable, separating from you. And now since you are away, I can't help but find myself trapped, and trying to fight off the memories that I have with you.

Good, bad and the ugly. It's funny how you say you want to stay cordial and be friends. But tell me something. How can I undo the love, the pain and the heartbreak you have caused me over the years. How do I let go of the things you promised, the lies you spoke, the way you misused my trust.? How can I be cordial with the man who doesn't feel the same way for me anymore? How can I look at those eyes which ones promised me to love me like no one? 

This anger that you see in me, this hurt that you hear in my voice, these tears that you called unnecessarily is me trying to escape the hurt you've caused. I try every day to find a place where I will be at peace. Where I will smile and laugh. But your indifferent attitude haunts me. I had been mistaken to have found true love in you but you shattered that dream for me. And now when I meet anyone, I feel they are there to cause me more agony and pain.  

I search for love but I'm afraid to love now. It's been hard collecting the broken pieces of my heart and trying to move on, but perhaps you will never understand. So next time before you accuse me that I have changed, think again.... Why am I the way I am today......