When Will I Be Healthy?

The last time I remember feeling fit was in the first trimester of my pregnancy. All throughout pregnancy I was feeling great physically but as the baby grows there are obvious pains. Today my baby is 10 months old. Every muscle of my body aches so much that I don't feel like holding my baby. Yet I do everything including bathing her and carrying her down for a short walk. As her activity levels have increased so has my body pain.

I tried to start some easy exercises but couldn't stick to a routine. As she gets ready for a nap my body is too tired to do anything else. I love her more than anything in the world. But I crave for a day off or at least a few hours without feeling guilty. I want to go to the gym or join the zumba class or do anything that gives me a little time for myself outside the four walls of my home. My husband and I are the only ones managing the house and the baby so it gets difficult to find time for myself. I know I am being clumsy but these days I prefer a few extra minutes of rest rather than exercise. The worst part is food. My stress levels are so high that I eat so much junk food, soda and packaged juices.

I hope that I will be able to make my willpower strong enough to change my food habits and find time for myself. But today I am completely burnt out trying to survive and maintain my sanity. As of now, healthy has to still start with me on a regular basis rather than occasionally.

Have any of you gone through similar phase like me? Please share your experience in the comments section below.