Soulmates

Finally its time…. I'm standing in front of a mirror looking at myself beautifully dressed in my bridal wear going to get married to the man I like with the full permission of our marriage from our families. A perfect wedding. My face full of glow and a big smile on my face yet….. my eyes couldn't bear this whole thing and couldn't betray the whole world and most importantly me….it's quite confusing right to just know that everything is right but it actually isn't so let's start from where it all began…..

11 years ago 4^th May 2016

Dear diary today I don't even know what to say why it's because of all my friends yes….. I'm talking about my bffs group. You must be wondering what's wrong right I'll tell you… well remember how last year all of us discussed that we would be sitting together and just enjoying this whole year together as our group got bigger.. well guess what that was not true!! I mean can you believe it all of its years of friendship just a lie I mean no go ahead and just do anything and it won't affect me right well guess what o my good I have feelings!!

Anyway what happened on the first day when I went to the class all of my friends were already sitting in pairs and when I asked them if I can sit with them then they just simply said no….. and I was devastated if it wasn't for the new girl Akshita then I would have been sitting alone… then they excluded me from the group so even I moved on and guess another crazy thing, my mortal enemy, Nishant and I actually started talking and I went with the boys group and they all were just so damn nice and without even realizing they soon became the cause of my happiness so yea right now I'm with Ansh, Mahesh, Nitin and Nishant and this is my new real bffs group also known as the backbenchers and I'm sure It is the start of a new adventure……{and believe me it was}

7^th July 2016

Oh my god you wouldn't believe what happened today well its become and everyday habit of me and Nishant just pulling the leg of our science teacher Mrs. Nishita Yadav and no believe me we are not "the bad students" but in fact our teacher usually just punishes the whole class even when the mistake is just done by one student! Seriously who does that … so we decided that we just can't get scolded for not doing anything we would get scolded for doing something.

So yeah well today as usual we decided to come late to her class and so we were on the stairs when Nishant just started singing while dancing "gulabi aankhey " then I continued "jo Teri dekhi" then he continued "sharabi ye dil" and then me "ho gaya" then he ran down the stairs and came very close to me and said "sambhalo mujhko o mere yaaro" and then I just gestured that look it yourself and said "sambhalna mushkil ho gaya" and guess what Nishita ma'am was standing there looking at us the whole time and when we realized this we literary couldn't stop laughing!

23^rd September 2016

Hey, diary finally half-yearly exams are over!!! And I got really good marks and as usual, Nishant totally cheated from me and guess what our French teacher caught him! And the funny part is…. Actually the whole thing is funny there was a question in the paper asking "do you wear skirts?" and I wrote yes and naturally Nishant just copied and the teacher actually read his answer out loud in the class after checking!!!!

I couldn't even control my laughter…. then Well for the starters we as in Nishant and I became bffs and we now hang out together all the time at school and believe me my birthday party brought us close together like super bffs!! And again we had to disturb Nishita ma'am so when she was teaching us the reproduction chapter Nishant asked her "ma'am why aren't there any activities in this chapter?" She got angry and said "what kind of activities do you want in this chapter!" So he replied "ma'am I was talking about the budding fusion of hydra and all" so ma'am said "oh… ok we'll see" and then Nishant said "ma'am what did you think?!" And yes she got furious……

1^st October 2016

Hey, diary today was Nishant's birthday and I got a gift for him his favorite book just like he did for me! But its delivery is due so yeah but as a compensation I taught him and Ansh how to play the keyboard and they actually took interest and liked it a lot then we sang as usual and the whole class was again hooting and just saying yeah Nishant and I make a perfect couple well as we have got to this topic why not talk about it well you know the whole school just wants to know that if we are in a relationship…. And we are there like nah we're just friends but literally no one believes us so today we decided to put up a show we were flirting publicly and saying I love you and stuff the whole day and then finally in front of the whole class I tied him a rakhi and believe me everyone was disappointed but I actually never tied him that rakhi only to Mahesh and Nitin cause Ansh and Nilesh just refused and made keychains out of the rakhis!

 Anyway then again during Dipali ma'am's period she has to scold me just like every day especially about me and Nishant so yeah as usual today I was doing my assignment that Nilesh came showed me a piece of paper and said hands up and I just ignored him so Dipali ma'am noticed and asked me to stand up! So I got furious and said I mean are you serious the whole class was going wild just like zoo animals and out of all you just noticed me who was actually doing her assignment and not making paper planes out of it!!!! Or at least that's what I thought I said but instead when she asked what were you doing I just told her I was doing my assignment and Nishant disturbed me so she said why does he only find one girl "you" to disturb out of all the girls in the class and again the class started to laugh……

30^th October 2016

Hey diary Today I saw a dream in which Nishant killed me so I was really mad at him and wasn't talking to him the full day and he was just coming around me asking what's wrong and I was just ignoring him so finally he held my hand tightly but gently and stopped me as I was about to walk past him and said what's wrong please tell me I'm sorry and so I told him and we both started laughing and then he said sorry again even though it wasn't his mistake not at all…..

4^th April 2017

Hey diary Today is the day when we separate obviously not literary but we change classes as all of the boys have taken Hindi and I took French as second language in 9^th class and so for the last day I brought dairy milk chocolates for Nishant and Ansh and we went away then I still kept meeting them during breaks and all but I was also getting jealous as they got closer to my old bffs group especially Vaani and I know that I would never except my own jealousy because we all are friends but it actually bothered me a lot and then eventually I got a bit distant as they got close….. even though students still shipped me and Nishant I couldn't see his reaction towards his old bff…..

7^th July 2017

Hey, diary Today it started drizzling as I was coming back from my swimming class that I saw Nishant coming down the stairs and so he asked me if I wanted to go out I said "you crazy! Its raining out there " so he said "exactly my point" so I just smiled and said ok and so we ran out in the heavy rain to get the homework register from the basketball court and as we were standing out there laughing and looking at each other, i dont know why but it felt like a moment which was immediately broken when a maid came and shouted "what are you two doing out there" so we just ran past her and towards our classes laughing the whole way there! Then came the scary part the strictest teacher was in my class for an arrangement Giya ma'am but me being the fastest on the spot storyteller got past her scolding but the other kids couldn't……

27^th December 2017

Hey diary so today I saw a dream in which I was with Nishant and asked him why couldn't we be in a relationship so he said I want to but there's just one problem there already is someone else in my life and that girl was Vaani…. I just thought of it as a silly dream until today when we were playing truth and dare I asked Nishant to choose between me and Vaani in rapid-fire and he said Vaani and it really crushed me from inside and it was for the first time my heart ached…… but it was just a dream and I'm overthinking……..right?

4^th April 2019

Hey diary Today I got shifted in my new 11^th standard and guess what all of my old girls bffs group is back in this class obviously by this time I have forgotten about the fight and stuff but still sometimes seeing them with Nishant I just get jealous but truly speaking over the last year me and him have really became close again. Anyways today I saw a boy in my society playing snookers and I was seriously being so overdramatic calling my friends and telling them look he's so damn cue and stuff I mean I have liked two guys 4 guys in the past but this one was something else…..

26^th April 2019

Hey diary Today my friend Anushka told me she wanted to talk to that cute snooker guy so we had got his social media ID through my younger brother as he was playing with him and turns out that he is literary living here even before I came in the society and I never knew about him so as Anushka was now interested in him so I thought of letting go of my feelings…..

27^th April 2019

Hey diary so the craziest thing happened today Anushka was going to talk to Ayaan the cute snooker guy but she got scared and so she pushed me in the club first while I was carrying her baby sister and so Ayaan saw me and just pointed at me so I waved my hand, then he assumed that I was Anushka ! apparently they had been talking the day before this and decided that she would go to the club with her sister and wave at him and that's how he would recognize him and so this was the confusion which cleared later….

5^th May 2019

Hey diary so today Anushka told me that she is no longer interested in Ayaan because he was kind of an introvert...and well Ayaan and I had already become a very close friends during the past few days so then I decided to ask him out for a coffe and thats how we started hanging out

8^th June 2019

Hey diary Turns out I and Ayaan dont a lot in common but he is actually a fun person to be with and not an introvert! And so we usually hangout at the club or I drop him till his block and that all stuff…. I mean if it wouldn't have been for Anushka then we might have not met….

7^th July 2019

Hey diary so today Ayaan left for college and boy we had a lot of fun today like the whole day we hanged out together and played guitar and sang songs in the club and then also went for a night walk…. It was magical and then finally before he had to leave we hugged and then he went….

29^th July 2019

Hey diary so me and Ayaan kept in touch and guess what we came in a relationship!! I was so happy but everyone in school asked me why I'm not with Nishant but Ayaan as they think that Nishant and I are soulmates in everyway and I don't know why it just sounds right sometimes…

1^st October 2019

Hey diary so today I made a surprise cake for Nishant and yessss he was damn happy and later after the cake cutting Mahesh told me that Vaani just proposed Nishant as a joke but he was extremely happy but when I got a cake for him he actually got emotional now I know that this doesn't mean something but for a brief moment it felt like…. I won…..

2 January 2025

Hey diary so everything is going great and me and Ayaan are very happy together as he is the totally perfect caring and kind guy but today all of a sudden in the middle of the night I got a phone call from Ansh asking ME to come to his house immediately. I hurried there and there it was Nishant with a box of ring…..proposing to Vaani and tears of happiness started running down my eyeys and I hugged them both congratulations little did I know that those tears couldn't betray my friends….

29^th March 2025

Hey diary today it might be one of the saddest days and one of the most unbelievable ones as well now you might ask why? Well that's because today I was crushed and afraid at the same time all these years I might have neglected that how I actually feel and today as I could have I didn't and my whole life I have been fearless because I lived for myself but today it was different I was scared not for be but for someone else and most importantly I lied…. Today was the day we had to leave for Nishant's wedding in Italy and we were at the airport station waiting for the train to come and as we waited we discussed everything that has happened these past years and the days of our friendship and laughed a lot until Nishant said I need to ask you something so I said yes what is it so he said I just don't know what to do I'm so happy with Vaani but I just can't seem to make her happy and then it hit me and I snapped out of my dream world it was true he was actually getting married and there was nothing I could do….

So fighting back the tears and the urge to say those three magical words I just told him to do whatever you think will make you and her happy together because its that when the happiness of two people match there are no doubts because when two people actually love each other then they don't have to try its just an instinct that comes from heart and its not about trying they are just happy when they look at each other smiling and the cause of smile is their love….. so Nishant just smiled and said I don't know what I would do without you then he held my hand and said promise me that you will never leave me and finally my tears rolled out so I just looked down not showing the tears and said I promise. Then the train came right on time and he started walking towards the train and me following him but as he stepped in I didn't come in and the doors shut close he started banging on the door and his muffled shouting voice saying where are you going and I just kept walking not even turning back once because his happiness was the last thing I would want to ruin by letting him know my feelings….

Present day

And that was the last time I ever saw him or spoke to him and here I am remembering him during my wedding day that my best friend Akanksha came in and said you can fool the world even yourself but not me and I said it can't be true I really like Ayaan but she replied you might like Ayaan a lot but you love Nishant and I felt that…. So I opened my diary started reading it and at the end page tears fell on the page but those weren't mine as I turned back I saw him standing there with his eyes full of tears and saying you finally turned and before I could say anything else he said that after reaching Italy I and Vaani broke up after a few weeks cause he realized each and everything I did for her happiness after some time I realized everything I was doing wouldn't make her happy because those were the things that you and I liked its as if whatever we did together not even one day we had to try to make each other happy because my happiness and my heart is with you…. And then I was just thinking about my marriage and stuff and was in a very tough dilemma but Nishant he just gave me a warm smile and hugged me that smile said everything will be alright don't worry, at that moment i felt safe and i knew i loved him….. and all of our friends were like its finally that time!!!!

So I would say that Nishant and I were never meant to be now why you may ask it's because meant to be sound too easy like it will just happen on its own but infact it's us who chose each other through all ups and downs and even though there was a distance between us our souls and hearts were always connected and thus we were soulmates……