Rapist

His name is Devilin 

He is indeed the devil himself.

He stole what rightfully belongs to me and destroyed my happiness and my joy for being alive and wanting to live and be free in this world that I thought was beautiful and I no longer feel comfortable in my own skin. As I was laying there that night I felt my heart beat faster and faster my mind was occupied with thoughts I thought I would never think about. Just in a second I felt how empty I began to feel. It's as if my soul got damaged along with my body how can I be alive but so dead inside. I honestly forgot how to be happy and how to laugh. I miss that laughter of mine that was so genuine that felt like soo much joy I don't know what happiness feels like anymore and what a real smile on my face feels like. I lost my passion for wanting to be alive and the dreams I use to dream as a little girl I forgot them

I lost me he stole my entire childhood from me and now I believe all types of Lies and I'm broken and I feel empty like every single piece of me was snatched away from me. He made me lose my innocence he stole it from me he made me believe that I am nothing and that I will never be good enough because he took what belongs to me like. I did not own it or as if it was not something precious or important to me or as if I don't have any consent towards what he took from me. He replaced my truth about me with lies and I believe them and now I'm confused and lost and I forgot who I was. My childhood was not a childhood that a child should have my teen days felt more like a life of an adult and now I feel like I know to much or to matured for this generation. I feel like I've experienced everything just way to early how do I endure this pain. How do I allow it to become part of me and allow it to help me grow or make me a little bit more stronger or an inspiration to girls like me. I felt like I had to be different from what a child should be like because I no longer felt like a child but like a girl that was introduced to something so impure and unpleasant and disgusting. I had no choice but to behave like someone who is already a grown woman