My best writin comes from pain

My best writing is from my pain

Some of my best writing comes from pain, from hurt, and from anger.

It is when my heart is broken, when I lay...broken in pieces that I write my best work, it's that honesty, it's when that raw emotion comes through and touches people. 

I bear my soul, I put it all out there for the world to see because I can't hide what I feel. I can't lie, I can't pack it away in a little box and pretend I am not feeling the way I am.

For so many years I did that... listening to my mother say after my rape and abortion "We shall never speak of this again"

Through my abusive marriage, lying and hiding my true feelings for years. I can't and I won't do that anymore, I have to be real.

Like it or not this is my truth and I must speak my truth. Yes... it scares some people because they don't want what they are feeling spoken out loud.

It makes it too real for them, as if someone is looking in their soul, seeing their deepest darkest feelings. I can not hold my truth back because you can't deal with yours...this is my path...my path to hopefully enlighten others.

I wear my heart on my sleeve, I am honest, I am real and when I hurt, what helps is writing. Some people cry, some get depressed, some drink or eat...I write.

Some of my best work came from the hell I was feeling after my divorce, or when I fell for Mr.Con Artist and threw him to the curb. I lost myself and my pain in writing my book. For a full year I emerged myself, writing my pain away. What that taught me was I could be true to my feelings, I could honestly look inside myself and see what was broken and what needed to be fixed.

When people read my book and tell me they cried reading it, I know my pain paid off. That all that I had, went into it writing that, and that I made the readers feel what I was feeling. It's when I realize that even that...even that pain, and that hurt was for a reason.

I realize that the pain I was feeling is for a reason, it's to open myself up, to share these feelings. It's here for a lesson, even if I couldn't see what the lesson was at that moment. I have learned through the pain, to just go with it. I learned to do what I do best to get through the hurt...I pray and I write.

So today my friends remember, the pain you're feeling right now is here for a reason, to make you grow, to close a door you refuse to, to deal with something.

This can be a silver lining to doing your best work, to growing, to change. Writing can unlock your pain, put you in touch with feelings that you've locked away and finally allow you to let it go, to finally be healed.

Never let your pain hold you down, use it for your good.

"Be the change you want to see"

@Treadmilltreats