Man Proposes, God Disposes

We were based in Mumbai for 4 decades and decided to move to Kerala. My husband had plans to set up his business here. But he always had stomach issues and we got him checked in Mumbai where the doctors could not understand if it's his stomach or chest the problem lay. He happened to meet a homeo doctor who gave some medicine and his pain went and he did not bother for further check-ups. It was when we moved to Kerala in May 2017 he started showing old symptoms again. We showed a local doctor who gave normal medicines. Then we moved to gastro in Nov 2017. We got further tests done and on Dec 8, 2017, we found out its cancerous. He got the tumor removed on Dec 28, 2017...started chemo from march 8, 2018...which ended on Aug 28, 2018.

In the meantime, in March 2018 I got pregnant which I was not aware of. When I found out I was clueless about what I should do but decided to go ahead as my daughter, now 11, always wanted a sibling. I hid the news from my hubby as I thought it would be better if I told him after his chemo ended in August 2018. But, I had some minor complication and hence I decided to tell him. He was very happy and thought God is being kind and showing him a new way. 

My son, now 1 year, was born in November 2018. 

As planned by God, my hubby died on March 8, 2019, when my son was 4 days short to complete the 4th month.

I have always been clueless about what I want to do in my life and I still remain but I put my HOPES in God.