FIRST LOVE

How many of you remember your first love?

I know you all do because this is the most amazing feeling. This is everyone's first. He/she is your first love, first hug, first kiss, first feeling, first I love you. Everything's first. 

I also do. It was the month of March. We were in the same class but our section was different from my first day. He knew me but I didn't. Yeah we were in same school but we both didn't have courage to talk to each other. Rather one day, as I was standing with one of my friends outside of my school. We were talking then suddenly I felt a someone's presence behind me I tried to stay calm but my heart was pounding that it felt like it will surely come out of my body. I knew it was him. My first.

He placed his hand on my shoulder, his presence made me feel week. I was about to get passed then he suddenly said something, 

Hey! Can we talk for a moment. 

I was in shock. After gaining some courage I simply nodded and then we headed towards the other side from my friend. We began to talk. Before I was feeling so nervous about talking to him but after it doesn't feel awkward. I talked to him for several minutes then my bus came and I had to go. I simply waved at his way and got settled at my place. I was thinking about him all way to the home. His voice was so soft that it was just repeating in my head again and again. 

The feeling I got after talking to him was so different than any other feeling. Thought of him only gave me butterflies in my stomach. The feeling was so relieved. 

After that we became great friends. We used to spend a lot of time together, tried to getting to know each other. By the time I knew him very well. From his favorite things to his life goals I knew everything. Then one day we were talking after the school at bus stop he told me those words that I was willing to listen I LOVE YOU. 

I got all the mixed feelings. I was excited, I was shy, I was happy, and a drop of tear fell from my eye and after a long pause I said him YES. Then my bus came and I had to go. We said goodbyes and I left. After that our relationship grew very nice. We had spent a long time together. Whether they were happy or sad we were by each other's side. 

One day he started to ignore me. He ignored me one day, then two then three then for 2 months we didn't talked. I tried to talk to him many times but he didn't responded well. After that his ignorance only grew worse. He treated me on behalf of his mood. If he was happy we were talking to each other. If he was angry or not feeling to talk to me he just ignored me. After that I didn't slept a single night. I was only thinking about him and where things got wrong where I did mistakes. 

Then after all these one year passed and I was so tired of his behavior that I decided to end our relationship. I went to him and told that we are over now. Little did I knew that I'll never got over him. After that I never talked to him. 

I never got over him but I know that he is not right for me. I try everyday to get over him and I am still trying because it may be my first love but it was true. I know I'll get over him some day. I don't know how much time it'll take. Maybe it'll take some more days only or some months or some years maybe but I will get over him someday. 

After that incident I learned that how much you love someone if they don't value you and respect you, you shouldn't be with them in any kind of relationship. Because right person will never insult you or never disrespect you. That person will only wants best for you so don't let someone use you just because you love them unconditionally. First love yourself than anyone else. 

First relationships are not always successful but it will always have that feeling in our heart because how much toxic or bad your first relationship is but still its your first so you have that undeniable feeling for that certain someone.