Fear Of Negative Judgement

The word fear is described as "an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm". All living beings experience fear in some way or the other at different points in their life. For animals, it is the fear of being killed by humans or other animals in the food chain. For humans, fear is felt in the mind and body. This usual response to fear is to flee or to face the danger.

My worst fear from my younger days has been the fear of being judged negatively for my work or my appearance or the way I talk or for my short coming. This affects me deeply and causes a drop in my self-esteem. This has happened when I am singled out for my mistakes and made to appear weak or useless to the others in the class. This fear of negative judgement hits you hard and leaves a scar which takes a long time to heal. When this happens many times the scar deepens and healing takes a longer time.

I have now chosen to cry out this fear of mine. Do the self-pity part and get over it fast to move on and focus on my goals. This has been a slow process though and I feel I am getting there to be more resilient. Happy to be more able to accept myself for my mistakes and never stop learning.

Thanks for my fear, realized it is a great learning process.