Deep Letter

Deep received a letter in his mailbox. He got a little amused. Who sends letters in this digital age. He took that letter and went to his room. Sitting on his bed he opened the letter and started reading.

Dear Deep

I know that you are a little amused to receive this letter. I know that there are a number of ways to contact you. But this is the only way I wanted to. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. It's only because of you that I have survived alone in this world. Don't strain your brain thinking about the time when you helped me. Because you didn't and that's how you helped. Yes, by never helping me. By never keeping me in this delusion that there would be someone backing me when I would need someone to. I was alone from the very beginning and I never needed someone. Though I do want someone sometimes, not you in particular ever, just someone. But as I just said I want that someone, I don't need that someone ever and the basic rule of life says that you can survive without the things that you want, pretty easily. But you cannot survive without the fulfillment of your need. That need for me was to be able to survive alone. That's the reason I always pushed people away. I always kept my distance from them, never allowing anyone to look in my heart.

I know that this closed nature of mine was the reason that you never told me what was in your heart. You were maybe afraid that I won't even allow you to speak. You were right I wouldn't have had. Well, today I want to tell you that I have finally learned to blend in a little bit, though not completely. I have finally learned to be friendly and even how to make friends. I have progressed from being a good listener to being an annoying speaker. I have a few friends who have been my friend for a few years. I even have a best friend who gets so annoyed that she has to literally ask me to shut up when I am around. I don't think even once before speaking what's in my mind now.

You know, the side of me which you saw so little for such a little time is much more visible now. In fact, it's out most of the time. One thing that has remained unchanged from then to now is my decision to never regret. Yes, I never regret anything. I don't regret anything ever. You shouldn't either have regrets about anything in life. Life would be much easier and a lot happier.

You know, one thing that loves a lot in my life is smiling faces. I was smiling while I wrote this letter to you and I hope you are smiling reading this. This is the only thing that I want. I don't want us to become friends. I don't want any follow-ups after this letter. I don't want you to contact me. All that I want is a smiling face if and when you think about me. I will too.

Keep Smiling

A friend who was never

Riya

I hope this is a closure that we never had.

Deep closed the letter and got up. He looked at his face in the mirror. He was smiling.