Death Is Not An Ending

So basically when I come across the meaning of death or here I don't go with the definition that its end of life. Here I mean that its death which makes people believe that nothing is permanent. Your own thoughts are not stationary, they change with the change of your mindset. Like when I was small, I really thought that being good and helpful always makes you happy. Later I discovered that sometimes it only makes others happy and just dissatisfies you.

For me, I learned the real meaning of death when I lost my father. Before my father's death, I lost few people who were close to me but that time it doesn't feel like the pause on every thought, every action, every emotion and every single thing which matter for me the most at that time. The only thing roaming in my head was that it's only a bad dream which will disappear but unfortunately, it's not. And one thing I know for sure is that the future I hold is not easy. Time pass and people change and then after a long battle between the past and present finally I also started enjoying my life like before but now I am more clear about the meaning of death.

Death doesn't affect only one person or I can say it's not contracted with only one, it joins with every person who is close to the died one. It is more painful for the closed ones. You all have someone who loves you and also those whom you love and both. For me my father is just perfect - not because he loves me, not because he was fulfilling my every need, not because he had the solution of my every problem, the fact is that he is the ideal person, he is the one whom I love, he is the one whom I want to copy or I want to be like him. I don't know but until now I try to search for my father in me.

Death is not the end, it's just the beginning of life for the closed ones. Life with the new change, new thinking, new mindset. Your life is not only yours so be careful about it. Your life is a part of many peoples' journey. I miss my father but I don't cry, I pass a smile to me because I know that crying is only going to open my old stitches.