Words Of a Porn Star

Dear Diary, 

Today, I wanted to write a topic which not many chooses to write not many wants to read, not many would support, and many would request to get unpublished.

Yes, it's the story of A porn star.

The World sees me as a shock,

The men see me like a piece of flesh.

The media sees me as a clown.

Yes, I am a porn star.

Like the usual little girls, 

I dreamt to be Cinderella,

I went through sufferings and pain,

With poverty, ruling I was determined to win.

Fatso was the name, given to me.

A deserted girl with whom no one wants to be a friend.

But I was determined to succeed in life.

I worked hard and toned myself.

As I grew, life went by a pace.

I did my graduation,

I did succeed in academics,

I did gain attention for the first time in life.

It was a rush of hormones, fame is addiction at no cost comes with a heavy price.

I graduated from a good college,

But the reality bit me hard, there was no fantasy truth in life.

No vacancy was the signboard seen.

Life was tough, but not for poverty.

One day I was offered,

Offered for my beauty,

Offered for my flesh,

Offered with legal terms,

Where exploitation was certain for a youngster striving for breath in the ocean of law.

The rest was history, which I want to forget.

I shared, so no other young woman falls into this trap.

No one enjoys,

We put a smile for our family,

We are just a rope of hope.

We leave by evening, 

no guarantee for our life.

Some were trafficked by the trust of love.

Some are pushed by parents,

Some are blinded by fame like me.

Do hate us,

Do see us like a foul.

But take my message, love as you are.

Body shaming is common, fight back but don't lose yourself for fame.

Date: 11-04-2020