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Why am I like this?

always involved in stuff like this

Be it good or be it bad

it just makes me go mad

Why cant I just think practically?

for situations that appear randomly

I'm aware of how its gonna end 

but somehow I try to make it bend

I am capable of so much more

but sometimes I act like a whore

Many people may get annoyed to my response

and I cant help these devil horns

It makes me guilty , who I am 

I do things that aren't planned

It always happens at the worst times 

I'm reminded every time I close the blinds

From strangers to friends then forget I'm there

its honestly a lot to bear

I try to forget it , but its hard

and as stressful as losing your credit card

Can't I just lead a normal life?

without pain , stress or strife!!