Unstable

I have many thoughts 

I'm tried of pretending that I'm okay 

Holding the pain, Now i drowning in it 

I need people but they don't even care about me 

God can heal me, I know he can 

But I'm having second thoughts 

I don't know either to believe in him or not. 

I used to believe in him

But I'm losing everything everytime when i started something 

Problems are surprising me everyday 

I pray for strength more than hope.