Unheard voices

I try not to get my hopes up cuz this isn't working out.

So then I, with every voice in my head, clearly shout.

I try not to make all of my thoughts crowd.

And echo through my brain so damn loud.

I miserably fail to try to calm myself down.

And to prove to everyone I'm not a clown.

But my head is still underwater, I don't wanna drown.

But I have to, I'm so tired of trying to be alone.

I turn the volume up and listen to my song.

But then it seems like it is so wrong.

A person like me, for it to belong.

Is there an option for me to stop being strong?

At that moment, I see the good of what's mine.

But have I done, to deserve this, such a big crime?

I try to get myself up, not lose all of my time.

And then dress neatly to stand in the line, 

The line of people who want to be fine.