Dwelling

Dwelling in my sorrow,

Immobilized by the pain,

Trying hard not to care about you

But all my efforts are in vain.

I get the pen and paper

Trying to write you away,

Yet, the irony of it all is

In my heart, you'll never stay away.

Immortalized in each pen stroke,

Memories held by each syllable,

Every letter is a thought of you

The relief in these words is minimal.

I really want to hate you,

Pretend you never existed.

My feelings for you is paralyzing,

Can't move 'cause I'm addicted.

I write to get over you

But I see you as I write.

Your presence makes my heart warm

Causing the ink to reignite.

I can type a million lines,

Emotions bleeding through the screen,

But there aren't enough words

To express exactly what I mean.

I've come to the conclusion

No matter what I do or say--

I'm too in with you

And I just can't write you away.