The Demon Inside My Head

This writing now which is coming truly from my heart

Comes not from joy or happiness, but suffering from the start

I simply cannot settle; restless to the point of agitation

Why am I punished so much my Lord? What is the causation?

The world is all around me, yet I am all alone

This unfathomable self is spinning like a cyclone

All I want in life is peace, but this I can never attain

The circularity of it all continues to remain

The calm of the storm is a rarity like gold

I swing; I sway, up and down, this I cannot control

The traumatizing thoughts in my head are about to cause me to break

Any other reality; for all I would forsake

I cannot comprehend what is scrambled deep inside

Emptiness and chaos in my head, this is where my demon resides

This demon will never leave my side; it is standing by my bed

It has taken me and all I own, even control of the thoughts in my head

It toyed with me, there were many voices speaking of pain

These voices are real to so don't tell me I am insane

Horrid things, they slit their wrists, the garbage they did take out

The objects in my bedroom, to scare me they move about

An angel with darkened wings, waiting to pass away

I simply cannot tolerate this life, even though this may be wrong to say

So I beg of you my Lord, your strength I need sent back to me

Lighten my wings from this pain and please set me free

Bring me away from it all, devoted to you I pray

Oh Lord do not forget me so, leaving me suffering here to stay