The Day I Killed Myself

Look at the blazing blue up above

Look at the bloody green running down

Look at the faded stone waiting for the rain

Look at the grass twisting their heads 

Can you still hear the echoes?

Can you still feel the air?

Can you still touch the skin,

Once you tore apart? 

Can you mess me up once more?

Can you bleed my heart?

Can you turn the white Red?

Can you turn the page over? 

You don't sing the songs anymore

You don't make the flowers bloom

You don't see the darkness within me

You don't numb my feelings with the love

All I see is doomed. 

So I took a turn through your arms

I chose a place where I belong 

It's calm and quiet here

Birds don't chirp

Mountains don't echo

All I hear is your voice wherever I go 

I can see pearls in your eyes

I can smell your essence

I can touch you when you tremble

I can whisper in your ears 

I know you're sad

I know you cry every day

I know I give you pain

Darling, I'll find a way. 

So I want to love you 

With all my heart one last time 

I want to feel you with all my veins

Maybe somewhere else I'll find you

Tell me, honey, you're still mine

Even tho I killed me that day.