So

Like using a scissor to cut off a spider web

Like using diamond to carve Graphite

You have clearly used an unnecessary amount of power to hurt me.

To love me.

Is to hurt me. 

I keep on thinking believing that I’m not quite worthy of it

Because you see this anxiety has me by the throat 24/7

 

I hate to say this out loud

But I keep thinking if your love is favor on my worthless self

Now, I know my worth

It’s just that my anxiety has me by the throat 24/7

I wish I could throw away my blades when you tell me to

I wish you could've seen how pretty I was scales

But I never was scales 

I’ve always been like this

I can’t throw away my blades 

The threat of panic has me by the throat 24/7

I wish I could enjoy sex

I wish I could ask you to choke me, daddy,

If only anxiety didn't have that place already

Has me by the throat 24/7 

I’m already on my knees and anxiety uses an unnecessary amount of strength to choke me

Like Truman bombing japan with nuclear bombs when he knew it was about to surrender.

Like using a brick to destroy mere sandcastles

Like loving someone who is lonely

You have used an unnecessary amount of power to hurt me