She

IF YOU HAVE SOME TIME, JUST READ IT OUT

Take me for a kid or a creep, I don’t know but today I will spill my heart out. I have something on my mind since the beginning I guess, but acceptance is what that really matters right?

Obviously, you might have got the idea of what I am talking about, yes it’s about a girl.

It was the second week as far as I remember, the moment she walked in, and everything just paused in my mind. It was like a pause in the chaos. This never-ending chaos that we all have, and the feeling that ours is worse than others, yes you got it, that chaos, it took a pause. I don’t know how she does that, but whatever it is I really like it.

You all must have gone through that phase in life where things appear to be worse than they actually are, yes I know you all can relate right? Oh, don’t be shy just face it one more time, anyways you all go through it every day. And then you come across a trail which you just don’t want to follow but deep down somewhere you do, yes, exactly, that trail. These days she is really busy being that trail to me and guess what I follow it every day. And the best part is I have stopped regretting, isn’t it great? Is this a bubble, a pool of mere paradoxes which are going to prove themselves wrong sooner or later or is it just her, I don’t know what it is, but I really like it.

The kind of confidence she has displayed so much character and depth. Her progressive approach, her way of appearing straight outta nowhere directly into the mess I call life is just amazing, her way of holding back or her way of letting go, I don’t know whatever it is, but I really like it.

The way she is, just the way she appears is enough to make my day better. The way she makes mistakes and then realizes that she messed up, yes, exactly, those mistakes that you have done too, the mistakes that I have done too, or the mistake I might be doing right now, just makes her more surreal to me, even though she is right there in front of me, but she appears more like a dream which really has the potential to be true. The truth that I really crave for, truth that doesn’t hurt but heals, that aura, that character, I don’t know what it is, but I really like it.

You know the most curious thing about her is that everybody knows her, but she is still unknown to the most. OOO…’thrilling music’, relatable again? Yes, exactly, things that you are hiding too, things that that I am hiding too. There is something with her sleeves that is so intriguing to me, I want to know what those mere sleeves are hiding, scars, burns, potential, her? I don’t know whatever it is, but I really like it.

Her way of being so expressive even in her calmest state is just so mesmerizing, her way of maintaining the balance, her way of repressing, her analysis and that thing that she has, I don’t know it’s like she knows how much to open up and to whom, I don’t know whatever it is, but I really like it.

We all have our different ways of understanding ‘love’ right? For some of you it can be those sleepless nights talking to each other or those chats behind those flashy screens, those pool of emotions repressed by your typing speed, miles of distance and hesitation too, for some of you it can be those crosshair gazes or those mid-recess talks, mild hugs, warm hugs or those pegs, for some of it can be those phone calls that slowly turns into a daily routine, wait a second are you guys imagining again? And I thought that it’s just me who is stupid. Yes, exactly these little things, well I haven’t understood completely what love actually is. In fact, she does not even fit in these little explanations or whatever we call them but still, she means much more to me.

 

Because I think love is all about knowing each other, those rhythmic flow of emotions entangled and synced completely, those stares, those looks that become the medium of exchanging thoughts. That sense of understanding the mids, highs, and lows of the music called life, well she is yet to fit into these, but still, she seems so right to be that music, that rhythm, that sync I don’t know what it is but I really, really like it. Well yes I really, really like her.