Pillow Of Thoughts

As I lay my head down on the pillow of thoughts,

An old incident hit my head, leaving me distraught.

What have I done, to deserve all this?

Insecurities and fear, will they ever finish?

My voice disappears, and I'm unable to speak,

Boundaries on free love, this is making me weak.

I feel so low for myself, compared to your perfectness,

That makes me wonder, am I even worthy of existence?

I don't deserve a life with you, you got your own prance,

Never dare to call me yours, you've missed your chance.

A clock ticks in the corner, though it hasn't run for years,

I scratched my face thoroughly, as I drown in salty tears.