Now they've realized

After repeated sleepless nights,

where my heart and my eyes, just wouldn't stop crying,

with reasons sometime clear, the other times hidden tight,

and the tears, they just don't get dried.

my chest, my soul, it all hurts so hard,

that I can bear no more, it's time to confide,

so I'm here again trying to write, because in poetic words, my feelings reside.

my heart's whispers, i won't let them slide,

through these verses, my tears are implied.

you may guess it as a heartbreak, but it's path I left way ago and behind.

though some scars still remain, but strengths too, I find.

my heart is too resilient that it's no longer weak,

yet sometimes, pain anyway finds it's way to sneak.

for why it may not, when the reason itself is lying inside.

now sitting around here, thinking what may have went wrong,

how I returned back to this place again, and what fault is again mine?

though it's not much hard to realize, that I'm nothing but a curse in everyone's life,

who gets in and outside, just to drain you till you've got nothing left behind.

and just when it comes to my sight, that you have too realized,

my shadow's depth, my flaws, my curse,

and that you don't deserve to carry the weight I bear,

I say nothing no more, and silently disappear,

wishing the best for you, your future and everything near.

then slowly I dig back into my solitude,

because for this new guilt, I'll now have to repair.

later after I have repaired and healed, my parts that i abruptly killed

I go on with my life and then someone appears,

asking me to lay down my walls,

only to remind me again of my flaws, my curse and the scars that have been drawn.

but this time I'm breaking the loophole, I decide,

for the only one I had faith driven inside, has also realized.

therefore, this time, no laying down no walls, in fact I'll build them more high

because it's the only way to keep my heart stay alive,

with no one to come try to heal the prior pain, only to scratch it deeper after it's back to life.