Nothing Left to Believe In
Nothing Left to Believe In
For once
I believed in Joy
I believed
That my pain would subside
My tears would run dry
And the bruises would fade
From my spirit
And the shattered fragments
Of my last pinch of sanity
But it seems
As though I had spoken too soon
For once,
I believed
In love
In life
And in unity and happiness
I believed they would heal my wounds
Relieve my suffering
And mend my broken heart
But it seems as though
These things
These feelings
Are always
Used to hurt me
I once believed
In decent people
Good-hearted and kind
Generous and fair
But it appears
As though the most beautiful angels
Are owned by the devil
Once
I believed in the real world
And a higher place when its all ending
But now
I'm not so sure
If there is anything good
Left to believe in
Sometimes I question my very existence
My world is built off of belief
Off of dreams
My world is shaped by thought and desire
But also seems
To often be blown
To smithereens
By ignorance
Evil
And greed.
Is this what hell is supposed to feel like?
Is hell simply
A state of mind
That we made up
To justify humanity's self-inflicted position?
Or are we just that ignorant
And proud
That we haven't realized
We have already pulled the last straw
Eaten the last apple
And ruined our last chance
For peace
For glory
And for redemption?