No Matter

You were always there,

but I kept running away.

You were trying to hold me,

but I was pushing you away.

You were always making efforts,

but I was always ruining them.

You were always smiling,

but I made you cry.

You have always loved me,

but I kept denying it.

You were like a precious memory,

I was trying to forget.

You were always staying with me,

but I made you leave.

no matter what I do now,

I can't forget you.

No matter how much I run away,

you are always in my memories.

No matter how much I want you,

you have become someone I can't have.

No matter how much I love you,

I can't even tell you, anymore.

No matter how much I regret,

I have lost you,

and that's the reality,

I don't wanna accept, anymore.

No matter what I do now,

you are always gonna be a distant memory,

I can only hold upto,

but can never make into reality, ever again.