New Heart For Haste!

Just like the wind you are not stable

Shifting and sifting through grit on the table

Famished for friendship always alone

Never yourself and too far from home

Wiped out of the lives of the ones that you love

Trying to fit in but you're the black banished dove 

Fanning the flames for nothing at all 

Waiting for the day that you finally fall 

April showers are nearly here

I am in the shadows reeling in fear

Crass believers always try to tame 

While I am in denial feeling the shame

Caught in the crossfire of someone else's dream

If I delve in that direction I may break at the seams 

A lovers day will come and it will go

Affection is crimson put on for the show

Do I take the plunge and cut through these chains?

Or do I stay loyal to the slayer who now causes pain

My mind is confused not knowing which way to turn

All through my life, I have bridges I burn

Just like the wind, I may never be still

They say time is a healer but it has broken my will

Where do you go when you don't belong here

I am in turmoil bound up with fear

I wish for the day when all of this waiting fades

So I can reach out of this shadow and escape from the shade

Are you the one who will answer my wishes

A heart for a flower bringing life-giving kisses

Yes I am in chains and weeping for freedom

I long for the day I can build my own kingdom

Igniting a fire to put out these flames I burn-in

For another love to bring me from this caustic sin

I can't stand the pace I can't act in haste

All of this time will be lost in this waste

I am in turmoil as I glance at the deep drop

She pulls the strings of my heart still it stops

But where am I now as I shift like the wind that sings

One of those songs that enlightenment brings

What do I do with the plans that I made

Who am I really with my life in the shade?