Me

I saw him today

Again standing on the same road

Not waiting for me

Just casually or for someone else

What a fool I was

Kept fooling whole life

Peeping out from some

Closed window, with no world outside

I was available always

And he knew it well

So he smiled at me

With the same casualty

But anyhow I couldn't

I kept gazing at his face

Keenly, may be trying to read something

But it was not mine

He was not mine

How long I took to realize..

He never walked in my life

And I never walked away form his desires

So unmatched forceful love

I realized.. just standing on the road

The road of different homes

He remained stranger every night

Just rattling on my bare body

I passionately hugged him

Kissing his tearful cheeks

Just a hallucination..

My nightmares..

So he is standing now

Stranger but different

Smiling at me

I realized my biggest mistake

The reason of my dreadful life

I know he is and never can be mine

But I have lost, the one

Who was all mine

"Me"the real,the actual me

So I pardoned and smiled

Back to him

He left the road.. perplexed

And I smiled and smiled again

A rebirth.. a Phoenix may be

Collected my ashes

And rose high towards

Some unseen horizon

Independent.. happy.. carefree..