Love...a crime ?

I'm hurt...hurt knowing that you're not mine 

I don't know what I'm feeling..

I don't know how to define it,

Am I wrong? 

Or my love isn't enough? 

Why fate is playing this game of bluff? 

And Am I good enough?

I'm tired... tired handling myself every day

Waiting for someone who will take all this anxiety away,

Come...come here ...see how my heart pieces are scattered

Scattered all around

And I didn't even realized when it broke

Feels like life's nothing but a joke,

One breaks...the other heal

Please tell me how to deal, 

Tell me some tricks and tips

Don't say.. I'll require some math cuz my calculations never fits, 

Though the pops never worked

but now neither the lofi's nor any other...life is just fucked,

And I'm hurt...hurt knowing ki you're not mine 

I don't know what I'm feeling..idk how to define it,

 

They say love is divine

But for me it wasn't even sublime,

The happiness when it happened

All seemed to be fantasy stories of fairies

And now when it got at the verge of end

All seemed to be nothing but an ephialtes,

I don't know what I'm feeling..idk how to define

And my heart questions now 

To love someone...a crime?.