I Would Die

Long before I even knew

How to fly

I wished somehow the world would fall

Or I would die

I always wished I would call you mine

But you were looking to be fine

Long nights 

Passed by

Scream fights

I never lied 

Bad blood

Darkened night

Deep blue ocean

To cast a light

I picked my sword

When you marched my soul

Before I even knew

Before I would ask help or call

The mess you made

The fire you had burned

The way I loved you

I guess you never learned

It took me time

To figure out

What was the fight

All about

I gave you all

But you gave me nothing at all

Thinking I would never scream

Just fall

I wish I never knew this side

You had

It is even worse then what I 

Thought was bad

I should have known 

How to cover up

Not to fall in pieces

Lasted forever 

Ended so soon

The scars and its bridges

I thought

I would die

If I never knew 

To fly

You gave me wings

But gave me scars to burn and die

I would believe if you said its all a lie

But you broke my truth 

Changed my timeline

Craving for the sunshine

Cursing the damntime

Wished I knew

To say goodbye

Cuz your words won't lie

If I would die