I Remember
I Remember


I remember the pattering of the silent rain,
on the rooftop and dripping down the window pane.
I remember the warmth of your faded embrace,
wrapped around me as we lay, face to face.
I remember the lilting of your low-key laughter,
as I accepted that you had become my enchanter.
I remember the tightness in my firmly sealed eyes,
closed to anyone who dared to give me advice.
I remember the realization that all our memories were fake,
all the moments we had spent together came from a mistake.
I remember the shattering in my bandaged chest,
when the world around me could no longer be repressed.
I remember the emptiness of my overflowing hands,
as I threw all I had away into the scorching sands.
I recall
now the pattering of my silent tears,
as the grief of something I never had caught me unawares.
I recall now the chill of your frozen embrace,
snaking around me, as I lay, a pillow covering my face.
I recall now the harshness of your hoarse laughter,
as I accepted that I would always miss you hereafter.
I recall now the throbbing in my uncovered eyes,
as I saw the reality of my inner heedless advice.
I recall now recognizing that all my emotions were fake,
targeted at something that had transpired from a mistake.
I recall now the sealing of my fastened chest,
when I learned how to keep all my feelings repressed.
I recall now the ache searing through my hands,
as I allowed my lifeblood to spill onto the cooling sands.