I Remember

I remember the pattering of the silent rain,

on the rooftop and dripping down the window pane.

I remember the warmth of your faded embrace,

wrapped around me as we lay, face to face.

I remember the lilting of your low-key laughter,

as I accepted that you had become my enchanter.

I remember the tightness in my firmly sealed eyes,

closed to anyone who dared to give me advice.

I remember the realization that all our memories were fake,

all the moments we had spent together came from a mistake.

I remember the shattering in my bandaged chest,

when the world around me could no longer be repressed.

I remember the emptiness of my overflowing hands,

as I threw all I had away into the scorching sands.

I recall now the pattering of my silent tears,

as the grief of something I never had caught me unawares.

I recall now the chill of your frozen embrace,

snaking around me, as I lay, a pillow covering my face.

I recall now the harshness of your hoarse laughter,

as I accepted that I would always miss you hereafter.

I recall now the throbbing in my uncovered eyes,

as I saw the reality of my inner heedless advice.

I recall now recognizing that all my emotions were fake,

targeted at something that had transpired from a mistake.

I recall now the sealing of my fastened chest,

when I learned how to keep all my feelings repressed.

I recall now the ache searing through my hands,

as I allowed my lifeblood to spill onto the cooling sands.