I'm A Mess

I'm a mess, 

And I don't know how to behave in front of people.

I'm not that much understandable by anyone. 

I'm having emotional traumas, childhood traumas,

Trust issues, friendship issues.

My body goes into fight mode in every defense situation and in anxious moments... 

I can't fight with anyone because I am protective of my boundaries as well as my mental peace or sanity.

I don't have many good relations with anyone.

Neither am I a social person nor do I look for a comfortable zone.

I'm attracted to the toxic traits of people which connect me with them.

It's not a big deal to have such traits. 

In fact, you should know about its dealing and it's my inability to not have this talent.