I Discarded my femininity
I Discarded my femininity
I discarded my femininity,
I was afraid people will say I can't play football.
I discarded my femininity,
I pretended to hate barbie dolls.
I was afraid people will say she has got no dreams.
I discarded my femininity,
I pretended to hate putting on make up.
I was afraid people will say with scrunched nose, "these girls with this face can only become models".
I discarded my femininity,
I pretended to be nerd, to not know anything.
I was afraid my teachers would judge my character for a few boys had crush on me.
At times I wanted to do french braid,
Sometimes curl my hair.
I wanted to keep my nails longer and design them.
But I pretended again,
For it is girly and being girly means weak.
Being girly means demanding.
I wanted to wear pink,
I wanted to go on heels,
I wanted to show my curves and that little mole on my waist.
But l pretended not to.
I was afraid of labels I will be put into.
I was afraid of my faminine side.
I wanted to scream sometimes,
I wanted to shout sometimes,
but I pretended I was fine.
I was afraid of sexist jokes being thrown at me.
I was afraid people will say These girls ..
These girls are crazy.
I pretended...
I pretended cause l was afraid,
I didn't wanted to be labelled as girly.
I hid my femininity
I was ashamed might be, a little bit because I didn't want to be labelled as weak.