I am not sita

I am not Sita

I will wander from forest to forest with you

I will eat roots and tubers

I will endure rain, heat, joys and sorrows

I will be yours

But I am not Sita

I will not merge with the earth now

I will share all your joys and sorrows

I will share mine

I will walk with you

But I will not make a path with your footprints

So what if I wander

I will find my own path

I am not Sita

I will not merge with the earth

Yes, I am not Sita

I will not merge with the earth

I will not say no to your every no

Nor will I say yes to your every yes

I am not Sita

I will not merge with the earth

I was not born from the earth

I was also born from the womb of a mother

Like you

My father did not find me anywhere just like that

In some field or forest

In some box or pot

I was also locked for nine months

My mother gave birth to me inside the house

No sound of thali ringing echoed

Nor the Sohar

So what

My shrieks kept echoing

Above all this

I did not come to earth from nowhere

I was not made by cutting stone

I am my father's darling

I am mother's daughter

As much as I was not scorched

By the heat of Agni-Pariksha

I have been burnt to ashes more than that

By your desire to test me by fire

Your good will to prove me a Sati

I ask you today

Why did you cut Shurpanakha's nose?

She wanted your love, right?

Why did you send her to Lakshmana?

Why did you ridicule her?

She was also a woman

So what if she was a demon

Didn't she have any dignity

Did you not have the dignity to respect her?

You were the best man!

You cut off his nose

You were no less than Ravana

You insulted one person

Then Ravana did it to me

He kidnapped me by force

I did not go to Lanka

Laughing and giggling

Rather I went crying and wailing

Calling and screaming for my Raghav

Dropping all my ornaments on the way

Then why do you question me

If you could not protect me

Then why test me

I shared all your sorrows and joys

But you did not share even one of my sorrows

You could have known my sorrows from the trees and plants

From the birds and animals

Oh, you were an omniscient…

You understood my heart

Then why did you not hear

my call

You pushed me, scolded me with full respect

You threw me out of the house with full respect

If I had gone to the forest crying

How would you have been a man of honor?

What answer would you give to my many questions?

But what happened, happened

I remained quiet

Thinking this

Listen

Now I am not Sita

I do not have only your shown world in front of me

I will bear my joys and sorrows alone

I will remember you every moment, every day

But I will not be absorbed in the earth

I am not Sita

I will not shed tears

I am not Sita

I will not hide my face in the earth

I will not be absorbed in the earth