How am I alive..

A mad cry at night,

The unwanted thoughts,

A waste anger,

A hopeless hope,

Those loneliness,

Those sleepless nights,

The nightmares,

The pain,

The grief,

The heavy heart,

Those never-ending tears,

The love letters,

Those scribblings,

Ended up in silence...!!

Don't you feel its waste of time??

How is it even a waste?

I don't take anybody's sympathy,

Neither I cry in front of them nor share anything..!

My eyes are dry,

My heart is light,

I am perfectly alright every mornings, like nothing has happened.

I am only broken at night, because its my time.

Those nightmares still scares me, because

Just a wink I lost everything,

Just a word he went too far,

Just a moment I was pushed into silence,

Just a last chance, Can I hold you tight??

There is more words in my silence,

There is still a unknown pain,

I pretend to be happy,

Deep inside I am still waiting,

And that is where I am still alive...!!