Grief at My Gate
Grief at My Gate
At times when I’m happy and smiling
A sadness slowly creeps in,
Silent and unknown
It tiptoes around my smiles
Pushing them into darkness
Until the last one of my smiles
Falls, deep and slow into
The Hollow of Grief
An un-hollow, unholy grief.
And in no second, I’m in pain
A disabling pain
That undoes my reasons
And numbs my senses
I feel nothing
I see black,
No specks of light but
I see hopelessness
And feel pregnant with despair.
This sadness is uncalled for
I never wanted to be sad in the first place
Despite the number of pills I swallow,
This uninvited guest calls herself,
Crashing the gates of my brain,
Into the ruins of my life
And settles where it already bleeds.