Everything Is Fine?

It's been a long time 

Everything is fine,

Nah, I'm not complaining

But there's no one around & that's hurting,

N that's the only reason everything is fine 

Cuz life feels like 

A card of six but mistaken as nine,

Ik there's no sense in the above line

But that's how my life is defined,

(senseless uk)

A life with no one around

To share 

To care,

No one to love 

& I'm still in the search of my dove,

No one around to ask 

& I'm just faking around 

Wearing a happy face mask,

Sitting alone sucks 

Feels similarly like an ugly duck,

All alone 

Feels like I'm standing in a red zone

And happiness is postponed,

I wonder what wrong I would have done 

My recent call log is nothing but an empty one,

But yeah it's been a long time

Everything "seems" to be fine, isn't it....my sunshine?