Envy

I crumble under the weight of my jealousy 

Everyday, every night

In silence 

In chaos

In my highs

And my lows.

I question my integrity, 

My love, 

And my heart,

Do I deserve this? 

I thought our love was beautiful

Like the sunset in the horizon,

Strong like the mountain

Standing upfront against all odds.

Hardly did I know, 

That it was fragile like a feather

Flying with the slightest breeze,

And dancing to the tune of any rhythm. 

Leaving me like a hollow vacuum

Eating away all my sorrow,

And boiling in my envy 

Looking at someone new in my place.