Dear 2024

Dear 2024, 

As my fingers are running through the keyboard meticulously, 

My mind stumbles, struggling to match the moment of fingers rigorously

For it has got unspoken words and untold thoughts yet to be processed carefully.

With the clock ticking fast, I am losing grip of my soul slowly.

As my mind tries to screen through my theory, 

I realizes that the pain that I behold isn't easy to carry.

Tears hidden behind laughter and smiles,

were far from pretty even for a while

As sometimes even faking becomes hard when life acts mercilessly.

With success and glory being a story of the history,

It was a year of downfall if you'd ask me.

Those countless tries to end my life in silence and swiftly,

just brought me more failure and tragedy.

Why is that you always pull me back to the same point constantly?

Why isn't it easy enough for me to end my life abruptly?

Why does only my life lack that soothing melody?

Why only me and not somebody?

Because you have that strength in you to face life even more bravely