Alone
Alone
I find myself entirely alone.
All their true colours have finally shown.
Can't believe I let myself hope,
Keep telling myself that I should have known.
I've been fighting,
But the shadows have grown,
I've been depleted,
Lost all that I owned.
I try to reach out,
But no one answers the phone.
It's not what they expect,
I didn't call to whine or moan.
I didn't want to ask for anything,
Not a meal or a loan.
I just want to hear your voices,
And not the dial tone.
I want to be better,
But I am mistake-prone.
When it comes to fucking up,
I wear the crown and hold the throne.
I'm full of bad habits,
That I should have outgrown.
I keep meaning to quit them,
But I keep having to postpone.
Life has made us hard,
It's turned our family into a war zone.
But I still miss you all so much,
I am not made out of cold stone.
I don't want us to end with
The lack of love that we've all shown.
I don't want the next "I love you."
To be the one at my tombstone.