A Restless Melancholy!

Running away from everything,

Desperately wishing for a wing! 

Craving for an escape, craving for some respect,

Lost away and wanting to introspect.

Learning to live on my own?

Or learning to leave all that borne?

Thrusting day in and day out, on and on

My precious life to decoction.

Weird how lonely one could get,

In this eerie age of internet!

Two face, all of us are,

Pushing our inner batman away too far!

Fighting with self, fighting with society,

Fighting with piles of anxiety!

Carrying a burden far too loaded,

With the layers of happiness since long corroded.

My mind's wandering through a never ending loop,

Stacking up all issues, with a big fat scoop,

Running through the unknown road,

To my homeless thoughts, it's an ode.

My thoughts are driving me crazy!

I wish some rum could make it easy.

Bailing in and out of the thought stockade,

Never ever have I been more afraid.

A dead-from-inside peripatetic,

My mind's a magnet and peace not at all magnetic!

All memories, slowly and silently fading out,

And here I sit with my capabilities, that now I doubt.

Not a single chord, I remember,

And all I bear now, is my temper.

All the tunes and musical transcription,

Now seems to me like some doctor's prescription.

I wonder what all I have lost?

My peace, and it's everything almost!

Where had I been to?

And what all have I seen through?

Diving deep into the sea of tears,

I try hard to fight my fears.

Messing up more all the mess,

Walking around with my shadow of stress.

Pull me out - my inner self shouts!

While still looking for uncanny hideouts.

A shield I hold, fake guarding myself,

But I might just need someone's help.