Shells Of Fear
Shells Of Fear
Not long ago
Since my broken pieces were my whole
What I present is not me
My laugh doesn't show my happiness
My sparking eyes don't show the saline droplets
Am I more than just my body
Is what I question?
Deep within I tremble in fear
The wish to escape eats me.
My timid legs no more feel brave getting out.
My heart and brain constantly fight
The war between my fear and courage plagues my sleep
There, with the dawn
My courage fades.
A simple touch triggers a memory
My hands shudder to make contact with my loved ones.
My eyes dread exchange with other souls
And I step back having that haunting memory.
They say the punctual waves of time will pass
Only if they knew that the shells of fear live forever.
The shadow never goes nor does the hand
He will never vanish nor will his touch.
They don't know he is behind me, never letting me forget
And making me relive those quandaries
They will never know
That I'm not an ideal victim
But an ideal Victor!