The Flow

The protagonist of that movie had jumped and flew in the air to some extent, which I never thought possible by an ordinary human being, and kicked on the face of the villain. Remarkable feet that, I thought and I really had believed the heroes in movies were superhumans. I was in the third standard then and I wanted to become a superhuman who is capable of flying in the air and saving people from evil people and not to mention, I'd loved the attention the heroes were getting from the audience. If only I did that in movies - Yes, I'd come up with an ambition for myself, which was to become a hero. I thought I was a hero and acted as one in whatever I did back then.

The year was 1996, I was introduced to cricket by my neighbors and the first cricket match I'd ever seen was India Vs Pakistan, the world cup quarter-finals - Sachin Tendulkar was out on 30 odd runs. There were around 20 people in the hall watching the cricket match and everyone was disappointed and dejected when he was out - wow, I thought. I should become like him and I was studying in the sixth standard. I wanted to become a hero in cricket. And I had played reasonably well in my neighborhood but not good enough to participate in intra and inter-school competitions.

The year was 2000 and the public examinations for the tenth standard had just completed. My father had made me join a computer centre in my hometown. I fell in love with computers almost immediately and I went to the centre whenever I could - the reason being DOS games. What a time it was! I still cherish the moments I had spent my time playing games and learning DOS commands and navigating windows. On the way back home, I would watch people playing cricket. By that time, I had become a very good fielder and middle-order batsman, for Rahul Dravid was my hero and I loved to imitate his style while batting.

The year was 2002, I was doing a second-year diploma in mechanical engineering. I played cricket really well and was famous amongst my peers. I had joined computer programming courses to develop games and other applications. And surprisingly, I still had the idea of becoming a hero.

The year was 2004, I was pursuing second-year mechatronics engineering. I had nothing in my mind and I was happy with no ambition and enjoyed my time with my friends. And I'd passed out in the year 2006 with first-class and had gotten a job in my field with reasonably good pay in Chennai. For a person who was loved amongst his peers and friends, I thought it would be piece of cake for me to adapt to any environment. But that never happened with my jobs, for I had worked for eight companies in six years. I was perplexed because I had no ambition and the salaries I'd been offered were good but still I could not work for long for any company. I was facing an intangible force called satisfaction and the irony was I did not know what I wanted in the first place.

I had kept on moving between jobs in various fields and during the end of the year 2011, something flashed in my mind - an idea of integrating every field I had worked in, thus far. Voila, I have a dream now, rather an ambitious dream. I left my job in 2012 and still in the process of realizing my dream.

The year is 2020, I have now gotten funds to develop my idea. What have I been doing all these years, you think? I have been trying several ways to develop my idea - I'd completed conceptualizing my idea in 2012 and had gotten intellectual property rights. Wow, for a person with no goal in life until 2011, this was a remarkable achievement and I suddenly started to talk and link everything that seems alien to many eyes. I had failed several times and lost a few friends in the process of establishing my idea. I have no sister by blood but had gotten one back in 2016 by bond and she made me realize what it is to have a sister for about six months and she had passed away because of cancer. I wasn't working on my concept then as I'd spent most of the time with her. Her passing made me think about life and that made me miserable. I had eventually moved on but the memories of my sister had gotten etched so deeply in my heart.

The year was 2017, I had made a few friends who became very close to my heart in a very short time and they almost have saved my life in the year 2019. And since the year 2012, I have been supported by my family - my parents and my brother. Boy, aren't they amazing! Now, I have an amazing concept that is being developed as you read this story, a few ideas for my books that I am planning to write in a while, a few other business ideas to work immediately after establishing my first business concept in the year 2021.

What have I realised in my life? Fame is never permanent, the mind is never constant, and of course, you can only be happy when you do what you love and most importantly the one that you love now may change tomorrow but that's how we have been evolved and our nature will evolve. Our life is dynamic in nature for nature is dynamic too - you can choose to follow the rules and be content with whatever you earn and can have or you could choose a new path, struggle for long, and if persist no matter what, you could establish yourself. I am not an established person yet but hey, I have something to write - if I were to succeed in my pursuit, you will have a story of inspiration and if I fail, you will still have a story for how not to do things. Either way, I will be known.